Friday, January 13, 2012

Dear Future Child

In one of my classes one of the assignments due today was a letter written to either a child we have now or will have in the future. This was actually really great "therapy" for me.

January 13, 2012

Dear Ayden or Addison,

This letter started out as a class assignment, but the more I started thinking about it and what I would write in this letter, it became a way for me to express my desire to have you in my arms today and let you know how much I love you even though we don’t have you yet. Your dad and I have always wanted children and we thought it would happen right off the bat. We were married December 2007 and we thought it would happen shortly after. Unfortunately things don’t always turn out as you plan and after several years of trying we became discouraged and sad because we wanted to start a family. If there is anything you should know it is that we want you so badly that sometimes it hurts to see others with children. We are willing to do anything to make having children a reality. When you do make it to our home you will be our miracle and our dream come true.
            The one thing we are learning from having to wait so long is to never take anything for granted. We are getting a lot of practice with my cousin Juliet, who is one, along with Early Childhood Development being something I am going to school for. I feel confident that when you enter into our home there will only be minor adjustments and we won’t screw up too bad. Your dad knows CPR and I know how not to treat children so together we should do ok. I am sure we will make mistakes but I hope that the one thing we will always do is show you how much we love you.
We plan on being the kind of parents that have unconditional love, parents that are patient and apologize when we aren’t, parents that are there when you need to talk, parents that don’t expect you to act like an adult when you are clearly not but don’t treat you like you are less smart just because you are a child and parents that are available 24 hours a day, 7days a week.  I hope that we raise you in a way that will be inspiring to you as you go out into the world and get married and start your own family. I pray that you do not have to go through the pain we have had to in order to start a family. Just remember that no matter what happens, or how bad things get your Heavenly Father is always there to talk to; even when you feel a lone, you’re not. Remember to stay true to who you are and what you were taught. We love you more than you could ever know. Even if you aren’t with us yet, I know you are waiting for the perfect moment, and when that perfect moment comes, your dad and I will be ready with outstretched arms ready for the wonderful, and amazing challenge of being a parent.
                                                            With all our love,
                                                                        Your Mommy and Daddy